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The Right Place…

December 3, 2015

 

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Have you ever known, really known you are in the right place?  The perfect place for you.  It might be a new job, a season, a city…there is peace when you know you are in the right place.

I love my company.  I’ve been with Dayspring for over 9 years and I love it.  Oh I just said that, well I do love it so much!   In those years I have been assigned to several positions and have learned ever so much.  I love that we worship each Monday morning, I love that I have a prayer group that meets every Friday morning.  I love that prayer, the word and the acknowledgement of the power of the Holy Spirit infuse each product we create and distribute.And now I have a new role.  20 days in!  I was elated with the offer of a new role.  In fact it was 2 years in the making.  It is exactly what I wanted. Exactly what I asked for.  The perfect fit, the perfect role, and the perfect company for me.   It feels as if I was created for this role and that my life’s journey has been leading up to this very moment.  Right place…right time! Can you imagine how I feel?

Terrified.  That’s right, terrified, ill equipped, a poser, unable to do what I need to do.  Last night as I sat in front of my laptop preparing for the week ahead.  I began to cry, and cry enough that my hubby stopped watching the recorded Chiefs game that he had waited all day to watch. He looked at me and I said, “I don’t want to go to work tomorrow, I can’t do this.”  His response said with great confusion, “What do you mean you can’t do this, this is the role you asked for.”

Well meaning, but not helpful.  Yes dumb me, I asked for a role that now I believe I cannot do.  What was I thinking? Even though I had prayed for two years for guidance & last month when this adventure began I was confident that this is the role for me and I know full well that the leadership of Dayspring had prayed over this as well, I was terrified.   I didn’t want to remember any of that, because clearly this was a mistake.

That’s right i simply chose to forget what God has done so far in my life and then I began to list the reasons I cannot fulfill my new role.

I am not smart enough.  I don’t know enough.  I’m not good enough.  People won’t think I can do this.

Then I begged my husband to please tell me to stay home and not go to work, ever again.    I can’t go, I can’t do it.

CAN’T, CAN’T CAN’T

The word that precedes surrender.  I closed my laptop and went to bed.  I turned on a Christmas movie to avoid thinking.  But I still thought.  I thought about the Monday that was fast approaching and all my inabilities and then I surrendered.  Guess what, I really can’t do this, but God can.  And I am confident that He has prepared me for such a time as this, that He called me and that He will equip me.

And with that, I entered into the perfect state of mind & heart for this perfect role at the perfect company for me.  For God can do anything with a heart that is surrendered.

While I feel confident in what He can do today, tomorrow will be a whole new story.  And I know full well that this big adventure will require daily surrender, daily devotion, daily prayer, and daily hope.

The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is you faithfulness.   Lamentations 3:22,23

Boy am I glad of this truth!

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